Date: October 31sr, 2k5
Time: 8:02
Mood: not too shabby
Music: poison the well
Subject:
happy halloween f0ckers!
For the first time in I don't even know how many years, we just decided not to shell out candy
to greedy little kids. Cause that's all they are these days, there's no good kids out there, if anyone finds one, give em
to me, so if I one day decide to have children they won't turn into little fuckers... lol
Anyyyyways, yes, my mother isnt'
handing out candy, she went out for her birthday, probably the first time in almost 15 years... simply amazing, congrats mommadearest.
She's still so young, but I'm getting old, how is this working? lol
I'm writing in this thing and watching the hockey game,
when I should be doing sociology, because if I haven't mentioned it already, I've had homework coming out of my ass like never
before, this weekend was so busy I didn't even finish what I needed to, so I stayed home in the morning to finish it, never
got around to that either.
My mother asked me for a Christmas list today, which I found ridiculous, considering its her
birthday, AND its halloween.. oh.. AND Christmas isn't for another 2 months! WOMAN! lol...
That means Less than 2 months
until Diana comes home for Christmas, less than two months until the entire gang is in the bars drinkin' ... I asked my mother
for booze for Christmas, does that make me look sad? haha...hahaha...haaa.....
Problem with that though... Last weekend
me and Whitney went over to Trevor & the gangs... And I haven't been there in a long ass time, and why would I, my ex
lives there, wait, let me rephrase that, my ex lives there, and hes psychotic? Well, I made it out of there alive, barely,
but it wasn't Craig's fault, it was someone who had far too much to drink and flipped out on me for no reason, I still can't
believe it, and the looks on everyones faces, I almost thought someone was going to knock him out for me...
So he threw
my cash, cards, etc, out of my purse, and I found out a day later that my passport and 20 bucks IN it was missing and I don't
go to Trevor's, so I messaged him online and asked him to look for it.. you think he will? Probably not, that's people for
you these days... they'll keep the money and pretend they never saw the passport or the money...
That was my only form
of photo I.D. really.. I don't have my G1 yet, I don't have a new Healthcard... in order to Re-write my G1 test I need my
passport, and if I don't re-write it, eventually, I'll have to do it all over again, and I'll lose out on 125 bucks. Plus
I need a license for 2nd semester of my Program next fall.... And I need it for when mom and I cross the boarder, and if I'm
not able to get my drivers license, I need the passport for I.D. when I go to the bars
So I'm f0cked...
And Whitney
won't help me out... but what else would I expect from her right, if I asked her for a favour it wouldn't benefit her in any
way, so why
would she help me out. Their her friends, not mine, her friend flipped out on me, not mine, she didn't
even back me up when he lashed out at me, some people just amaze me, or should I say they really don't?
SO yet again,
that's my ranting and raving.......
Have a good one, and gimme all your candy
the end.
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Date:
October 10th, 2k5
Time: 6:30pm
Mood: super
Music: death from above 1979
Subject: an update on my life..
haa.
Schools been raping me, which is why I haven't updated, after I thought the last time I updated, "Yeah, I should
really update that shit more often"
So, yes, schools been raping me, but oh boy, it's been fun! .. sort of.
It's heavy
but not heavy to the point where I want to give up on a daily basis, and my teachers arent bad so far either... I seem to
be good with getting on their good side. It's mainly Biology, Photography and Sociology that's raping me.. well.. thats 75%
of my semester. A lot of people arent enjoying sociology, it's a lot of work but it's interesting.. makes me look forward
to college. I can't wait until I'm done this semester...
Then I can apply to college and start working full time...
As
for paying, I have no idea, if my mom can pay for it with the money we get when we sell the house, whether my dad will pay
for it from his inheritence, whether I'll have enough money from working...
I have no idea where we'll be living too so
if we live far I'll apply for OSAP and just buy a car instead of usin MAMAs...
So schools going pretty good... And Diana's
coming home, which is a big relief, we can't wait until the winter when she comes home...
It'll be the end of my semester,
we're goin to the bars for my birthday, getting inked, did i mention we're getting royally trashed? So I invite everyone to
come out to Catch 22 on december 27th... and the 30th... and 31st probably as well.. I'll probably end up having a party...
it depends on where I'm living, if i'm in the middle of moving, or whatever the hell is going on at the time...
Life's
good... I'm just focusing on friends and school, nothing else. I like this way better, lol.
I might be scoring tickets
to NIN, DFA1979 & QOTSA... and I'm going to be fucking stoked if it happens... my moms friend discovered how much I like
all of the bands, and she happens to know a couple guys from NIN, apparently one of them loves baking... so she's going to
try and e-mail him
I don't know who I'd drag to the show.. probably Whitney... she wouldn't want to go, but if she's going
for free I'm sure she wouldn't complain...
This weekend was pretty swellllllllll... besides the turkey... me, mamma and
pops went up to haliburton... a good 8 hours of driving up there, around the city and then back home... it was nice... the
leaves were all changing colours on the roads up there and some of the roads were between tall walls of rock, i was going
to include pictures but i got far too laaaazy. mmm.
My train of thought stopped right about..... here.
Maybe that's
a good thing.
okayyyyseeyoubuhbye.
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Date:
August 27th, 2k5
Time: 1:30am
Mood: mellow
Music: Audioslave
Subject: Never thought I'd update this thing
ever again...........
Vent, vent, vent, that's all I can do, but it doesn't seem to get me anywhere but deeper into
questions...
I don't vent for the world to read, I dont necessarily vent for my friends to read, I do it for myself, sometimes
I just can't get out the thoughts fast enough for writing, the next fastest thing is typing...
I've just been going through
old conversation histories of certain individuals from the past... it put me in a really depressed mood
How can someone
change so much... what caused it, was it me, have they really changed or is it just me, just the situation, are they hiding
the person they used to be for some unknown reason...
Some of them just used to be so different, so much more interested,
so much more talkative, intiative when it came to conversations...
Now it seems like I'm the one who's doing all the talking...
I'm
home alone tonight, on a Friday, mom's gone...
There's just so much on my brain... I always want answers to everything...
I
always want to understand people and situations, and why people do the things they do, why they act the way they do, why things
have changed...
My best friend of 10 years is going to pretty much drop off the face of the earth in 5 days...
One of
the last I had left...
It made me realize I don't have a hell of a lot left here in Oshawa...
Friends are grown up...
You
know how they say you find out who youre true friends are in the end, well right about now it's all layed
out for me, and I can see what's left.. and there isn't much..
College, relationships, moving, life... oh life..
So
friends have slowly vanished, I've been in and out of relationships for the last year or so...
Mom... she's starting to
live a little, now that her and my step dad are separated...
I'm just worried about her getting her heart broken again
by the next boy... who would've thought something like that would've come out of the daughters mouth.. that's something I
usually have to worry about myself..
Knowing whether or not we'll be living here or leaving here...
Knowing whether
or not I'll be going to college, depending on my financial situation..
I just hate things being up in the air...
Not
knowing...
Just wondering...
I know this next year of my life's going to be unpredictable...
And unpredictable means
not knowing, just wondering...
And I hope that's not a bad thing when it's all said and done...
DaTe:
October 12th, 2k4
TiMe: 11..ish?
MoOd: melloww....
MuSiC: ...well i guess it would be suited to my mood....?
hoookay,
so! i was late for class, hopefully it doesnt become a routine or anything... it wasnt my fault anyways, the "car didnt warm
up fast enough", good part was the morning i guess, i got caught up on shit, then got more stuff piled on top anyways, so
it really felt pointless, but at least its out of the way, then had to go in at lunch to talk aboot my project that went to
shat.. worked on that, blablabla, after class came.. me and whitney headed to my place to pick up my bank card n whatnot...headed
off to wallymart to get my old whitby psych pics finally back, the line up was huge so i was like FFF that.. then we ran into
dianas new guy... DOUGIE! <- that ones for you diana, man! then a sort of embarassing experience that i will not
mention on here out of respect for whitney happened...
thennnn, whitney wanted to go to mc pukes, we were eating her fries
when we came across a dead fried fly at the bottom, it was gross.... ya want flies with that? like.. just.. ew.
oooh oh..
& then andy, poor andy, but he cracks me up...
Andrew says:
If its at platz house itll be fun
Andrew says:
bring mah new gf over
Andrew says:
Her names Imaginaria
Andrew says:
Such a pretty name
lol no worries bud, i can relate to that.. except the uhh, chick part.. ya know?
DaTe:
August 10th, 2k4
TiMe: going on 2 am i think
MoOd: melloww....
MuSiC: i have a playlist with like 600
songs.. so- i dont know..
sooooooooo
hi!
no one reads these things do they? well whoever does thanks.. lol
this
weekend,next week and next weekend are lookin good!
fri i work til 8.. todays tues.. well really tis wed.. and i have
wed off..
im leavin to go to scarborough sat afternoon to hang out with dave and darren! we all havent hung out since like..
january or something! lol
then sunday we're going to see 36 crazyfists.. i really wanted to go to warped tour but things
didnt turn out that way.. so.
then next weekend ill be seein ashley in barrie, and we're gonna have a party on friday!
we're gonna have so much funn!
oh ya, and i have a lil
crush.. but no one reads this so it doesnt matter
now does it LOL
crushes are stupid anyways :p
oh ya and i spent like 600 bucks in about a week.. great huh?
i duno
what to say, if im not lazy ill update this tomorrow..
i duno what im doin tomorrow... diana, matt and jen all wanted to
do somethin.. so ill see..
DaTe: July 27th, 2k4
TiMe: going on 6
o clockeeee
MoOd: very bored, as usual.. im at work? what else is new..
MuSiC: inertiatic - mars volta, with a
lil bit of 36 crazyfists on the side :p
Howdy Folks!
Welcome to another edition of jessicas ranting and
raving, let's begin...
Leaving off from the last journal ...
Friday...
- Did absolutely nothing, well, I was
going through movies, & I found Freddy Got Fingered, I haven't seen it before, so I decided to watch it, see what that
was all about, it wasnt thaaat great, a couple funny parts, but mainly stupid.. or maybe I just wasn't in the mood at the
time, I duno
Saturday...
- Woke up, had a shower... I was bored again, I needed out of the house, so, I ended up
going to Scarborough to see Darren [haven't seen the dude in like 6 months!] hi darreeennn *waves* ... where the hell were
you dave?! huh?! huh?? ... working you say? thats not a good enough excuse.. :p
- Sunday, woke up, lazed around, me
and Darren headed off to the Scarborough Town Centre.. I tried not to spend money, I really did! .. But obviously I wasn't
trying hard enough, cause I bought a Dickies top from West 49... I also saw a pair of white shoes, I really wanted
them, since I have black ones, I thought I could use white ones too.. but I didn't know if I had enough money in my account,
so i left them alone.. heh
Sooo, I left, since my mom didnt wanna pick meee uppp, & i went home, my mom picked me up
at the bus stop.. sorta, and we went to a friends place to load some stuff on the back of the truck for the backyard, my step
dad and his buddy were doing it, drinking, whatever, we needed them to help load the stuff into OUR back yard, so they had
to come with us.. we had to put them in the back of the truck, bad idea but uh, guess we almost had no choice.. and the two
seatbelts @ the front were behind the seat, so 2/3 in the front had no seatbelt, and we had 2 dudes sittin in the back, drunk..
i told my step dad not to touch the beer, what does he do half way through the ride? Opens up a beer and starts chugging in
the back of the truck... SMARRRT... it was sorta funny but still.. glad I wasnt driving.. oh yeah, did I mention he's turning
FOURTY in a week?
Later on went out with Jen, Adam and Charity to Ajax, then came back
Monday...
Another day
back at work, same old shaaat, no students workin here except me.. damn
Got a phone call from Jen, she's kicked out of
her house and Shhiiitt, it sucks, i wish i could let her stay here but i cant with the hours i work and stuff.. but im off
for like a week and a half starting wed afternoon]
talked to dave for a bit... i think i have plans figured out, ill go
to scarborough, and then on Sunday, 36 crazyfists concert!!!!!!!!!! <-- if anyone wants to go, LET ME KNOW ASAP, im getting
TICKETS on Friday
TheN, im going back up to Barrie or wherever with Dave and hanging out with ASHIEEEE.. then when her
mom gets back from Alberta, we're all gonna drive back to the shiiitttttyshwaaaa
oh yeah, and while @ work yesterday, chris
came on yahoo, i talked with him for a little while, sorta weird, havent talked to him since prom, O WELL
Tues... thats
today right? doI
- Tried phoning DAVE.. yes YOU dave @ 11 30 this morning, like you TOLD ME TOOOOOOO, ya dork! you
gave me the wrong # over msn.. i ended up waking up some chick in SUDBURY because your number isnt 525..... its 526! lol..
ah well, i forgive u... i guess, u gooooof
- Beeen talkin to Ryan [cooook] all day, hes keepin me entertained..except
when i leave him randomly, and he leaves me randomly back:p
- I phoned ASHIE, told her ABOOT the plans, i think
their gonna work out gooood.. :D yippeeee
it looks kinna shattty outside, looks like im not going swimming again...
the
pools like 85 man.. errr
im bored tonight, who wants to hang out wifff meee? [prolly NOT.. ha!!!!]
okayseeyoubuhbyenow!
DaTe:
July 22nd, 2k4
TiMe: almost 7
MoOd: very bored
MuSiC:
Hey all... tis been about a month since
I've written in here, I've been busy, and I also forgot about it... heh
I guess I'll backtrack..
Yesterday
- My
puppy sam.. 14 yrs, got put down...it was sad, but best for him..
- Woke up & went to Ajax with Diana
- Went shopping,
got clothes, shoes, underwears, bras, sockies
- Had lunch at Caseys, felt like the fattest kid ever, even though I am
-
Picked up her sister, came back to my place for a swim
- Walked her to the bus thingy thing @ 9 30
- Jen, Adam, Charity
and Tom, Theodore, whatever the hell his name is came over for a swim, so I had to go swimming again in a wet baithing
suit lol
- They went home, I talked online a bit, talked to Chris's sister, havent talked to her in forever, let alone
talked to Chris since prom.. but whatever
- The night Before I..
- Worked
- Diana came over, we rented Eurotrip...
I already saw it before but wanted to see it again cause it was that good..
- Talked about shit going on lately.. told
me all about her trip
- Other shit -
- Got into a fight with Adam...
- Tabbie came down, my friend from Pembroke,
we partied, had a good time
- Stew came down, had a good time too, as always, lol
Warped tour is on the 14th, 36
Crazyfists are on 15th and Finch is on the 16th.. oh mah gaad... I havent checked out Finch's new stuff.. I wonder if they
suck now..
I'm also trying to make plans with Ashie.. but we're havin baaad luck
And Dave is coming down to Darrens
on August 13th, so we were going to hang out again, cause Darren, me and Dave had a wikkid time last time, yup yup..
Tabbie
might be comin down again sometime in August.. hmm
I'm planning a trip to Ikea.. who wants to come? :p
I'm sittin
at work listenin to a mixed cd bored as hell, I can't get msn on here, only yahoo... no ones on, matt went with trevor to
the movies or somethin, he was keeping me entertained for awhile after this girl I work with Chelsea left...
Her last day
is tomorrow though, I'm gonna be lonely! lol
She's like 3 or 4 years younger than me but she's pretty cool...
Hey
Ryan (Ryan Cook) *wAvEs* <-- See..now you're in there, so shuddap :D
Anyways, I think I'm done... Buhbye
P.S.
... I give up
